We all experience what could be termed “good” days and “not so good days”, though that terminology is unhelpful.  I believe the day is as “good” as our perception of it.  When we learn to react with equanimity and non-judgement to all situations, we can lose the fear, the anger, and the disappointment and instead take the insight and the strength from what is happening.

Pansy

For instance, when is it ever convenient for our car to break down?  On the face of it, never.  However when we look below the surface of the inconvenience we will see that not being able to do what we had planned, will either say something about our true feelings or will give us a reason to change a plan.  There is always an upside. We can always expand our awareness.

Seven years ago, my beloved soul friend Pansy, a true love on legs cat, changed her behaviour towards me.  She began to lie on my right hand side, nosing into my armpit, and then giving me one of her serious looks.  This became her only position on me.  Two weeks after Pansy started to do this, I found a lump in my right breast.

I knew instinctively that it was breast cancer and went immediately to see first my GP and subsequently a specialist.  Over the next six months I chose to support myself with acupuncture, Chinese herbs and visualisation. I resisted the consultant’s message, which was to have a mastectomy. I knew what felt right, not what frightened me.

All this time Pansy continued nuzzling into the lump area.  After 6 months I agreed, against the consultant’s advice to a lumpectomy.  As I came round after the operation, there he was, standing by the bedside.  He was happy to tell me that what he had removed was so much smaller than he had expected!  I was not surprised but I was so thankful that my intuition had guided me to the perfect choice, for me.

I was in my flow.  I learned to trust my instinct and intuition completely.  This was my learning, my expansion and so for that reason whilst I would not wish the experience of breast cancer on anyone and whilst I would encourage anyone faced with similar experiences to trust THEIR intuition I am not sorry that I had the breast cancer.

My other reason for undying gratitude goes to Pansy.  She got there first.  She used her natural instinct to point out something to me.  It was my lack of awareness, which meant I didn’t check my breast a bit sooner.  Once the lump went, she never nuzzled my armpit again.  Thanks to her I was able to deepen and expand my understanding of the natural connection there is between animals and humans. She renewed my intention to stay in my flow and to share that wisdom with so many others.

God bless her loving heart.